“You’ll get there”
“Do what you have to do”
“Your time will come”
These are all popular phrases of encouragement; words that should keep me keeping on. In many cases they have; in moments of despair and hopelessness these words have kept me moving. I am all for the fight for what you want in life; I generally go full steam ahead, work damn hard and do everything I can to try achieve my goals. I get super excited over every little ounce reflecting the hard work paying off. There are, however, days where reality sadly hits me in the face… much like walking into that unexpected glass door with a bit too much gusto.
Recently, I have had a lapse of despondency and have lost heart in my ‘go get ‘em’ attitude. It’s as if I’m having an argument with the universe and am at the stage where all I can do is throw my hands up in the air and say ‘oh whatever’! Yes, I was getting nowhere being angry, and being sad could lead to another side of me I didn’t want to unravel. So for a few days I lived life with no expectations; from cooking meals, the hum-drum of work, people around me and of me. By no means did I find this the solution, but it helped me. It was like I took a lunch break from my life; I sat back, took in moments with no expectations and just evaluated what I was doing, how I was doing things and perhaps see if I could change something or just accept the unchangeable…
I still don’t have solutions for how to overcome my disappointments. I definitely don’t have worldly philosophies about good energy and sending out positive vibes to the universe. All I know is I am going to keep trying and working hard for what I want. Through all of this, I’ve learnt you just have to take joy in the unexpected, even if it really is not what you were hoping for. Much like I had no expectation for this recipe; it actually turned out pretty darn tasty! It was a twist on a novel recipe my gran gave me years ago… talk about turning your expectations upside-down.
So here’s to the unexpected moments, little delights that get us through the tough moments and tasty treats (of course).
½ Cup Brown Sugar
½ Lemon, sliced
½ Orange, sliced
1/2 Cup Castor sugar
¾ Cup Self raising flour
1. Preheat oven at 160˚ C.
2. Line the baking tin with baking paper.
3. Melt 60g butter and line the baking tin
4. Layer the sugar on top of the melted butter.
5. Layer the slices of lemon and oranges over the sugar and butter.
6. In a bowl, beat the 3 eggs and castor sugar. Until thick and creamy.
7. Fold the sifted flour, pinch of salt and the rest of the melted butter.
8. Pour the mixture into the baking pan, covering the layer of citrus slices.
9. Bake for 45 minutes.